I could've kept it short, but no (poem)
I could've kept it short, but no
With so many emotional words, lost in the confines,
At first I watched you from a distance, in the glow of the night,
You were a dream that danced away, just out of my sight.
I stood behind the shadows, longing for the day,
When courage would awaken and love would find a way,
Dreams of us together, painted in my mind,
But the ink just kept on flowing, with no truth for you to find.
Later you became a spark in my ordinary days,
You were a flicker of hope in the subtlest ways,
City lights shimmered in the rearview mirror,
Every glance at you made my heart beat clearer.
From the first date, to the laughter we shared,
I was wrapped in your arms, but did you ever really cared?
Time felt like magic when I was by your side,
Moments like those were stuck in my head, they abide.
And there I stood with my heart on display,
Hoping you'll feel what I couldn't say,
You also kept your heart wrapped tightly in disguise,
Afraid to show the truth behind your eyes.
I remember when you said the last goodbye,
The echo of your voice used to make me cry,
Each word you spoke felt like a blade in my heart,
But I understood why we drifted apart.
If only I had spoken before, if only I had tried,
If only fear didn't held me captive, and I didn't let my heart hide,
Those moments fade, yet they always stay,
As I replay the words I couldn’t say.
My heart was broken and the music's lost its spark,
Each corner of this room felt so cold and dark,
I searched for traces of you in every little thing,
Finding only shadows that kept me quiet, unable to sing.
The clock ticked slowly, but the days rushed on by,
I was caught in some kind of limbo, just a ghost passing by,
Scenes like paintings were in my mind, your smile, your gentle touch,
But regret is an artist, and it hurt, oh, so much.
I wished I could turn back time, rewrite the lines we penned,
Hold you close against the night and let that sorrow end,
But in that ache, there was a flame that couldn't die,
A bittersweet reminder, no matter how I try.
I thought we were a symphony, a song that was once whole,
But I guess, I was just a whisper, a distant sigh of soul,
You were my summer, now I'm winter's chill, An empty cup of coffee, a void I can't fill.
You knew the depth of my heart,
And you know well that piece you took with you, tearing us apart.
Your favorite song plays on the radio and the world fades away,
I sway with the rhythm, wishing I told you to stay,
Your favorite song plays and it cuts like a knife,
It's a reminder of the beauty that once filled my life.
It's a reminder of the beauty that once filled my life.
The fracture was deep, the scars ran wide,
I was haunted by the question: "Can we mend what we cast aside?"
In the dawn's soft light, I wore my heart bare,
Though you were gone from my arms, you were still everywhere.
The love that we built, the dreams that we shared,
In that aching silence, I knew you once cared,
I tryed to move on, but the ghost kept me awake,
Haunting me with what we had and the love we used to make.
I was searching for a reason, but I already knew it had to end,
The best answer I found is that our love will never mend,
Sometimes love does fade, sometimes it never dies,
It's real both ways, but the pain of goodbye never lies.
For so long I carried the burden of that day,
As I watched you slowly slip away,
Maybe we were blind to see the cracks that formed beneath our feet,
And maybe the pain of what's been lost wasn't worth the cost,
But we found ourselves standing on broken ground,
In the end I can't deny the truth we've found.
In the end I can't deny the truth we've found.
Seasons change, but my heart stays the same,
I no longer chase those shadows and play a lonely game,
But if I could go back, I'd find a way to say,
That loving you was easy, it was fear that led me astray.
Through the window, I watch the stars ignite,
Reminded of the times, you lit up my night,
I no longer wish I could turn back the hands of time,
I'm just here writing poems, making the words rhyme.
Pouring my feelings out on the paper that you will never read,
A silent confession, a wish I never freed, but you really were all I need,
I catch a glimpse of us in the corners of my mind,
But courage eludes me, leaving love behind.
I was so in love, but I was shy, and my heart was too slow,
It took me forever to realize the love I had to show,
Then it was too late, and you were out of my sight,
You left me with tears and a lonely light.
I never told you how I felt, maybe that wasn't right,
Why did I let you go without a fight?
I wished I had spoken before you walked away,
But I was too afraid to say how much I love you, every single day.
Those unspoken words echoed in my mind,
A love that became unrequited, a heart that's left behind,
I knew you are gone, but I was left to wonder why,
Because I didn't tell you how I felt before you said goodbye.
If only I was brave enough to spoke my heart,
You'd know how much you tore me apart,
Maybe it's stupid to hold on to the love we shared,
But I hope that someday you'll know how much I cared.
Every smile you gave played like a sweet refrain,
But my heart is now hidden and wrapped in gentle pain,
I no longer stand on broken ground,
And the pieces are not scattered all around.
I thought I'll forever cry over to the past,
Sheding tears and regretting every moment that didn't last,
But for so long I walked the shattered path and the pain faded like an aftermath,
I still found my way to see the light of a new day.
In the rubble, I found my inner strength,
I found a chance to rebuild from the length,
Of mistakes that brought me here, I finally overcomed my biggest fear.
My biggest fear was living without someone I love the most,
Every breath I took, every step I made, you were my guiding post,
With you, I was whole, complete and alive,
I couldn't envision a world where you're not by my side.
You really did break my heart and I was just a shadow in the rain,
My heart was in pieces, my soul was in pain,
I woke up to a world so gray and my heart was heavy with fear,
Lost in the shadows of yesterday and searching for a light to appear.
How could I go on without your love to light my way?
Loneliness became my fight, yet with time the pain faded away,
Now I let poetry guide me through the storm,
Loving my freedom, finding beauty in the darkest form.
In every shady past, there's a story to be told,
When my emotions intertwine, they are now bold and cold,
And when somebody hurts me, I always find my way,
To color the life of the ones I love and light up the darkest day.
In this garden of words, each piece of writing is akin to a unique flower, representing a different emotion, theme, or message.
Some may be bold and bright, capturing attention like sunflowers reaching for the sky, while others might be delicate and subtle, evoking contemplation like shy violets hiding among the leaves.
My favorite are daisies. In life, each individual daisy symbolizes an opportunity and a fresh start or a new idea that can flourish when nurtured. Just as the daisies bring joy and hope to those who observe them, our new beginnings bring potential and promise, reminding us that after every difficult season, a new chance to blossom is always within reach.
I find roses irresistable too. Each color and variety of rose serves as a reflection of different emotions and messages. 😍
Red is passionate love.
"Poetry is a like a firefly illuminating our hearts and dark corners of our minds with ephemeral light. It is beckoning us to pause and wonder in the beauty of the moment."
That long poem up there at the beginning of my post was a mix of lyrics I never used to make songs because they seem too poetic to me. I might make more posts like this from unused lyrics. This was a story about heartbreak, pain and healing after a break up while still being deeply in love with someone who moved on. That's one of my favorite themes to write about. Why is that?!
Writing about pain and heartbreak is a powerful form of expression that resonates deeply with both the writer and the reader. Songs and poems about painful experiences can be easier to write than tackling lighter subjects due to the intensity of emotions. It fuels creativity. Many poets and writers illustrate this point through journey of healing after a devastating breakup, revealing how writing became their therapeutic refuge amidst relentless waves of grief. I can relate because writing and reading made me a stronger person who can deal with her pain on her own without bothering other people to talk about it. Although many of my poems, songs and stories are fiction and the content is not inspired by something that actually happened to me, I've been through a lot in my life. I have always had a deep appreciation for writing. The ability to express thoughts, ideas and emotions through written words is a powerful and transformative tool that became everything to me. Writing allows me to explore my creativity and communicate effectively with others to connect on a deeper level. It provides a sense of freedom. Another great thing is the process of conducting research, analyzing sourses and collecting information. That is intellectually stimulating and fun. I've learned a lot reading books and bloggers inspired me to start my own blog. Another reason for starting this blog is to prevent losing my work in case my laptop breaks again.
"Are you a writer? Because every time I look at you, my heart plots a narrative of love and drafts a story in which my mind edits out all the doubts. Or are you a plot twist? Because just when I thought I knew the story of my heart, you turned the page and made it infinitely more enchanting."
Writer pickup lines.😂
Sincerely,
anettehehhe@gmail.com
